No. #24

"I made her take a pregnancy test, and she was pregnant. When she first found out she was pregnant, she didn’t believe it. She said it was impossible. She wasn’t happy. And I was scared. I remember that I told her I was there for her. I asked her what she was going to do."

Me and this girl were together for less than a year. I moved in with her. She didn’t have her period for months. I made her take a pregnancy test, and she was pregnant. When she first found out she was pregnant, she didn’t believe it. She said it was impossible. She wasn’t happy. And I was scared. I remember that I told her I was there for her. I asked her what she was going to do.

She kept putting it off. She said she wanted to get rid of the child because she wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready either. I left it totally up to her. As time went on she wasn’t getting the abortion. She was doing drugs. It was just a really, really stressful time for her. Who wants to deal with something really traumatic? She just did what numbed her. She might have been doing drugs to try and kill the baby. Who knows?

Five months into the pregnancy, I went to Planned Parenthood. I told them I didn’t have any money, and we were in this predicament. I was working at the time, so was she. But we weren’t making enough money even for ourselves.They ended up paying for it. It was really rough. It was really sad. Just knowing how far along she was, that the sex of the baby was known, but she didn’t want to know. Just knowing that it was a part of us that went away. It’s sad.

We had no one. Just people around me. Just friends. I didn’t tell my family until afterwards. We still stay in contact to this day. But we don’t really talk much about it anymore. I’m just glad I made it through. And I’m glad she made it through. It just made me want to be more careful.

I’m still trying to figure out my life. I’m sure she is too, but she works hard. She has a job, and I'm staying at a shelter. I’m trying to get that. Life is good. Because life is good. I’ve had so many experiences in life that have just led me to believe that life is good. There’s good things that happen. There’s bad things that happen. But the fact that I’m alive today, that’s a blessing.