No. #2

"I have two kids. Both of them were unplanned. They just happened. I got two baby girls, two beautiful baby girls, but I didn’t plan them. I was young. I was like 19. But it’s cool, I love them. They’re my blessing."

I have two kids. Both of them were unplanned. They just happened. I got two baby girls, two beautiful baby girls, but I didn’t plan them. I was young. I was like 19. But it’s cool, I love them. They’re my blessing.

I was actually a bad boy. I just got out of jail, and then I went back to school and met the mother of my children, and that’s how it happened. We started dating, stuff happened, and she ended up pregnant. And so I stayed with her, for the family and to make sure we were a unit, and then after that another one came. So now I’ve got a little family going on. But I was focused on myself. I was selfish, young, just hanging out with friends and doing dumb stuff.

I was at the house, just chilling in my room playing a game, and she called me and said that she took a pregnancy test and she was pregnant.

And I was like, “No, no, you’re playing, stop playing. I’m only 19, I barely got out of jail, like, man!” But we went to the doctor to get a blood test and it was positive, so I was like, “Okay then. We gotta do what we gotta do.”

I was surprised, you know, cause I’d never planned on having kids ever in my life. Like I said, I’m too selfish. I’m too worried about myself. You know, but it happened, and now I’m proud that I have kids. It changed my perspective about the whole world.

I’m kind of a careless person. When I have stress, I just push it to the side. I don’t try to worry about nothing. I’ve only got one life, I’m not gonna worry about other people and the problems they’re trying to put on me. So I just live my life and enjoy whatever comes along, just go with the flow. It’s like a boat. Just go in the ocean and just ride along.

She was really excited. Like I said, I didn’t want kids or anything, so I was kinda bummed out about it. But then the baby was born, and everything just changed. I saw her and a train of love hit me. Ever since then, I’m all about my babies. I can’t do anything without them.

I didn’t have my father in my life, so I don’t want to be him. I’m named after him, but I’m not gonna be him. I’m gonna be there for my kids.

I have two other sisters from him, and he signed off their parental rights. He didn’t want anything to do with them. Then I was born, and he kept me cause I’m a boy, because I could carry his name. But I don’t see it like that. I don’t care if they can carry my last name or not, my daughters are my blood, my family, I’m not gonna abandon them. No! They need their dad, they’re girls! They need a daddy. If not, they’re gonna go find attention from other boys and I can’t do that.

I have a 2-year-old named Aliyah, that’s my oldest, and she’s crazy. She has my attitude. She can be rebellious at times, but other than that, she’s an angel. She’s my baby. I’m always gonna love her no matter what she does. She’s a blessing to me, no matter what. Whatever she does, I could never judge her, she’s my baby. And then I got a 4-month-old, but you know, she’s only 4 months so she don’t do nothing, except poop and pee and sleep.

It gets hard, but I’m gonna do what I have to do for my kids, always.

I don’t want to go out and party all the time. My friends don’t even like hanging out, they’re always yelling at me and stuff cause I don’t kick it with them anymore. They think I’m too focused on my family. For some reason when I go out with my friends, I start thinking about my kids, so I’m like, “Oh, I’m gonna go home already.” My friends are like, “Oh man, you’re always with the kids.” I never expected myself to be a family man, but that’s what I am. Now I tell my friends, “Wait til you have your own kids, you’ll understand– unless you guys are like my dad and wanna run away from them– if you love your kids you understand that. They’re everything. They’re my number one priority over anything else.

I want to raise them well. I don’t want anything bad to happen, I just want to protect them. So that’s what being a father means to me. To make sure they’re know they're protected, they’re loved, they have somebody who’s there for them. I want to make sure they have a good path in life. I don’t want them to go down the one that I went down. They don’t need to go experience the handcuffs and all that. It’s not fun. Well, for me, it was fun. But not for them, they’re my girls.